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Slim-Thick, Side-Eye, and 42

Everybody loves January.

New beginnings. Fresh starts. Big plans.

And all the exciting things we’ll quietly quit by January 10th… which, inconveniently, is my birthday 😆

I get all the same new-year energy everyone else does — I just get pelted in the face with the reminder that I’m turning another year older while everyone else is pretending this is the year they finally become a morning person and pull off slim-thick without selling their soul.

And honestly, that’s kind of how my 40s have felt.

It’s messy.

It’s loud.

It’s completely feral.

I didn’t ease into this decade with a glow-up and a vision board. I came in sideways with a total hysterectomy at 40 and a widow-maker SCAD heart attack at 41, which is a wild way for your body to say, hey, let’s talk about what actually matters.

So yeah.

My hormones rage-quit.

My heart threw a plot twist.

And suddenly I was standing in a version of my life that looked familiar but felt completely different.

Being in your 40s is this strange in-between space. You’re not who you were in your 30s, but you’re not fully in your “don’t touch me or my peace” era either. You’re still soft, but you’re done being trampled. You’re grieving who you were while quietly meeting who you’re becoming.

People love to say that by the time you hit your 40s, you just stop caring — about what people think, how you look, everyone else’s feelings… and yeah, kind of.

But it’s not that I don’t care.

It’s that I’ve gotten frugal with what I care about.

I don’t waste it on things that don’t give a return anymore.

I care about my people.

My health.

My time.

My peace.

Everything else can fight for relevance.

It feels bumpy because it’s an identity molt 🐍

You’re shedding versions of yourself that fit once but now itch like hell.

And it’s ironic — because while my body has never been louder, my tolerance for nonsense has never been lower. I feel more emotional and more done at the same time. Thank you, menopause 🫠

The other day, sitting in the 7 Brew drive-thru waiting on coffee, the girl working asked me what song would describe my life right now.

I didn’t hesitate.

“Ironic,” by Alanis Morissette.

Because of course it is.

It’s ironic that everything feels messier, yet I’m clearer than I’ve ever been.

Ironic that I feel like I’m starting over, even though I finally know myself.

Ironic that I care deeply — just not about the things that don’t matter.

My 40s didn’t arrive with a gentle sunrise. They kicked the door in and said, we’re doing honesty now. With your body. Your time. Your energy. Your people.

So if you’re standing here in January, staring at another fresh year with a mix of hope and side-eye… same.

This isn’t reinvention.

It’s me finally being exactly who I am and not feeling the need to say I’m sorry.

I don’t know what 42 has in store for me, but at this point I’m putting on all my safety gear 😆

Helmet. Emotional knee pads. Snacks. Bubble wrap suit. All of the things.

Because this decade might be chaotic…

but I’m finally grounded enough to live it.

XO — Jonesy

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Slow December Mornings— learning to give myself just a little bit of stillness

Slow December mornings aren’t my norm — I’m usually chasing the day before I’m even awake enough to greet it. But this Sunday, with coffee in hand and the tree glowing softly in front of me, I finally felt still. Just for a moment. Just enough to breathe. Maybe slow isn’t impossible… maybe I just needed to meet it.

I’ll be honest — I’m not someone who usually wakes up early enough to meet the morning gently. I’m the snooze-button girl. The “five more minutes” girl. The “why didn’t my alarm go off?” girl — even when it did (twice).

Most days, I start already behind — rushing, scrambling, trying to catch up while life is already moving without me. I love my people, I love my home, I love the chaos — but I rarely step into the day quietly. I don’t give myself space, or time, or breath before everything begins.

But this morning was different.

Today is Sunday — a day with no real schedule, no rushing out the door, no frantic countdown. And somehow, whether by accident or grace, I woke up early enough to sit with a warm cup of coffee and let the day find me slowly.

The Christmas tree sat right in front of me — glowing softly, gentle and warm like it had been waiting for me to notice. No alarms. No deadlines. No sprinting into the morning.

Just slow.

And if I could freeze that moment — the glow, the warmth, the quiet — I would. Not to escape life, but to carry peace into it. To remind myself that I don’t always have to start at full speed. Sometimes stillness isn’t laziness — it’s kindness. Sometimes slow is medicine.

It made me wonder how many mornings like this I’ve slept through. How many times I traded five minutes of grounding for five more minutes under the covers. How different my day might feel if I gave myself even a tiny margin of stillness — even once in a while.

I don’t expect myself to suddenly become a sunrise-loving, yoga-stretching morning person. I probably won’t. But maybe — on weekends, on Sundays, on days like today — I could choose slow. I could choose soft. I could choose to breathe before the world needs anything from me.

Not perfectly. Not every day. But when I can.

Because I think I deserve that moment. And maybe you do too.

And now, an hour in — coffee gone, tree still glowing — it hits me: I’ve been surviving my mornings, not shaping them. I think I’m ready to shift that.

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90 Days Post Heart Attack: The Comeback I Never Saw Coming

Ninety days ago, I thought I was having a panic attack. I didn’t know it was my heart. I didn’t know the words ‘SCAD’ or ‘cardiac rehab’ yet. All I knew was something didn’t feel right. Now, 90 days later, I’m still healing. Still here. And tomorrow… I ring the bell. Not because I’m done—but because I’m still going.

I didn’t know I was having a heart attack.

There was no dramatic clutching of the chest, no collapsing to the floor like you see in the movies. What I felt was… weird. Off. My chest was tight. My breathing was shallow. I felt shaky. Unsettled.

So I did what a lot of us do when something feels wrong but not wrong-wrong: I called my mom.

I told her something didn’t feel right. That I was trying not to spiral, but something was definitely going on. I figured I was having a panic attack, maybe brought on by stress, lack of sleep, or just the chaos of life. After all, I’m a mom. Stress is kind of my full-time job.

I wasn’t in unbearable pain. Just… unwell. And then things escalated.

The ER was bright and cold and full of wires. I kept cracking jokes to keep the fear at arm’s length. A nurse gave me nitroglycerin and suddenly, WHAM—headache from hell. (If you know, you know.)

And then the doctor came in and said the words I never expected:

“You’ve had a heart attack.”

Just like that. The floor didn’t fall out from under me—but my sense of safety did.

It was something called SCAD: Spontaneous Coronary Artery Dissection. A rare kind of heart attack that doesn’t come from cholesterol or clogged arteries. It can strike anyone—young, healthy, and without warning. I didn’t know this could happen to someone like me. But it did.

What Came Next: Grief, Gratitude, and Cardiac Rehab

Suddenly, I was a heart patient.

Not a hypothetical one. Not a distant-relative story. Me.

I had survived a heart attack, and I had the hospital wristband to prove it.

After the whirlwind of tests, scans, and silent prayers in dim hospital rooms, I was discharged with a new reality: I would need to go through cardiac rehab.

Cardiac rehab isn’t just about walking on a treadmill.

It’s about rebuilding trust in your body.

It’s about learning to breathe without bracing for something bad to happen.

It’s about showing up—even when your brain tries to convince you it’s safer to stay still.

And tomorrow, I graduate.

Healing Isn’t Linear. But It’s Possible.

Rehab wasn’t easy. There were days I walked in confident and strong, and days I barely made it out of the car without crying. I’ve had panic attacks, quiet breakdowns, and moments of defiant joy. I’ve learned how to advocate for myself. How to rest. How to say, “I’m not okay,” and still choose to keep going.

And most of all—I’ve learned I am not broken. I’m not fragile.

I am healing.

I am here.

I am still becoming.

This wasn’t the plot I expected. But it’s the one I was given. And now I get to decide what comes next.

What Now?

I can’t wait to see what life looks like after cardiac rehab. There’s fear, sure. But there’s so much hope too. This experience cracked something open in me—not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. It made me softer in the places that needed grace, and stronger in the places that needed fire.

So, here’s your invitation:

Come with me.

Let’s live the after together. Let’s talk about the messy, beautiful, terrifying parts of healing. Let’s say the quiet things out loud and celebrate the victories that only make sense to people who’ve faced the unthinkable.

Tomorrow, I ring the bell.

Not because the hard part is over…

But because I’m finally ready to begin again.

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The Spaces We Never Name

There are spaces inside me I’ve never learned how to name.

They don’t scream or shine. They simply exist — tucked between coffee stains and sighs no one hears.

Some days they ache.

Some days they hum.

But always, they remind me:

Joy and grief can sit beside each other quietly, without needing to explain a thing.

There are spaces inside me I’ve never learned how to name.

They don’t beg for attention.

They just exist — tucked in the soft folds of everyday life, stitched between coffee stains and grocery lists, hidden behind sighs no one ever hears.

Sometimes they hum when my daughter laughs too loudly down the hallway,

a sound so pure it slices through me,

reminding me that joy and grief can sit shoulder to shoulder and never say a word.

Sometimes they ache when the house falls too quiet —

when I remember that nothing stays full forever,

not houses,

not hearts,

not even hands.

They aren’t sadness.

Not really.

And they’re not happiness either.

They’re something else —

something raw and unfinished, like a song you can almost remember but not quite sing.

No one warns you about the quiet devastations.

The way your child will outgrow your lap — and your arms — and the way you’ll cheer for them with a smile stretched over breaking bones.

The way grief will find you tucked inside the pages of an old book you almost gave away.

The way you’ll catch your reflection in a window — not expecting it — and realize you’ve survived things you never thought you could.

I used to think strength meant fighting harder.

Clawing, roaring, refusing to break.

But I was wrong.

Strength is quieter than that.

It’s sitting inside the ache without numbing it.

It’s loving people while knowing they could leave.

It’s mourning the girl you once were without abandoning the woman you’re becoming.

It’s knowing you can carry both the endings and the beginnings —

at the exact same time —

and still choose to stay open.

We don’t have words for everything.

Maybe we’re not supposed to.

Maybe some things are meant to be felt,

woven into the way we tuck our kids into bed a little tighter,

the way we laugh with our whole chests even when the world is heavy,

the way we wake up and try again even when nothing feels lighter yet.

Maybe the truest stories are the ones we live —

the ones stitched into our scars,

tangled in our laughter,

etched into the spaces we never learned how to name.

And maybe, just maybe,

survival isn’t the hard part.

Maybe it’s allowing yourself to still believe in beauty —

even after everything.

Especially after everything.

And if no one’s ever told you this:

You’re doing beautifully.

Even in the unnamed spaces.

Even in the quiet.

Especially there.

Love,

Jonesy

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The Weight of Everything I Don’t Say Out Loud

I’ve smiled when I felt like crumbling.

I’ve held it together in places where I should’ve fallen apart.

And I’m tired—tired in a way that sleep won’t fix.

But I keep showing up, because that’s what we do, isn’t it?

We carry the weight of everything we don’t say out loud,

and somehow convince the world we’re fine.

This is me, not fine—but still here. Still trying.

I’m not sure how to begin this one—because honestly, I don’t even feel like I’m in my life right now.

I’m going through the motions. Smiling at the right times. Saying I’m fine when I’m anything but.

The truth?

I’m physically and emotionally wrung out.

Like an old, overused wash rag—frayed at the edges, stretched thin, dripping with everything I’ve tried to soak up and hold together.

Heavy.

Drained.

Sour around the corners.

My body aches in places that never used to hurt.

My patience wears thinner by the minute.

My spirit?

She’s quiet. Still in there, but curled up in the corner hoping someone will notice she’s tired.

And I keep telling myself, “This is just a season.”

But what no one tells you is that some seasons don’t have clear start or end dates.

Some seasons drag on with no resolution, no closure—just one long, exhausting loop of trying to function when you’re running on fumes.

I’ve done the crying in the car thing.

I’ve done the pretend-I’m-okay-in-public thing.

I’ve done the keep-it-all-together-for-everyone-else thing.

And I’ve smiled while doing it, too—because that’s what we do, right?

We carry the weight. We soften the blow. We make it easier for others to be around us, even when it costs us everything.

But let’s be real for a second—

I am so. damn. tired.

And maybe you are too.

Tired of always being the strong one.

Tired of holding space for others while no one checks in on you.

Tired of pushing through when what you really need is a full stop, not another motivational quote and a cup of reheated coffee.

I don’t have a pretty bow to tie on this post.

There’s no triumphant comeback at the end.

Just honesty.

Because being wrung out doesn’t mean you’re weak—it means you’ve been showing up.

You’ve given what you had, even when it wasn’t enough.

You’ve poured out love and energy and time, even when you had to borrow it from tomorrow.

And somehow, even now, you’re still here.

Still breathing.

Still trying.

Still loving people the best way you can, even when your tank is flashing empty.

That matters.

You matter.

Not for what you accomplish. Not for how well you hold it together.

But because you are here. Still. In all your tired, messy, magnificent humanity.

So today, if you don’t do anything but rest—good.

If you cancel the thing, say no, lower the bar—good.

If all you have in you is surviving, barely—good.

Because you deserve rest.

You deserve softness.

You deserve to be held, too.

This season might be breaking you open, but I promise—it’s not the end.

You’re still here.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s more than enough.

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How Not to Die in Public: A Totally Unqualified Survival Guide

What do you do when your body taps out mid-treadmill and you end up pale, pukey, and plopped in the cardiac rehab time-out chair? If you’re me — you laugh, you cry (a little), and then you write a survival guide.

“How Not to Die in Public” is part snark, part truth, and 100% real life. Because when your joints sound like haunted maracas and your blood pressure dips like a toddler’s mood swing, you deserve a standing ovation just for showing up.

Because nothing says “main character energy” like getting benched at cardiac rehab.

There are moments in life when you feel powerful, radiant, unstoppable.

And then there are moments when your body says “Sit down, sweetheart” — and you end up slumped in what can only be described as the Big Ole Time-Out Recliner, pale as printer paper, desperately trying to pretend you’re fine while contemplating your entire existence.

Hi. It’s me. I’m the drama.

Let’s set the scene: I showed up to cardiac rehab like the responsible adult I am. Water bottle in hand. Positive attitude loaded. Stretchy pants on point.

Ten minutes in? I’m yeeted from the treadmill and gently deposited into the recliner of shame, holding back vomit while silently negotiating with the universe not to let me die in public.

Joint pain? Unholy. Blood pressure? Missing in action. My will to power through it? Hanging on by a thread and a poorly secured ponytail.

So in case you, too, find yourself unexpectedly starring in a low-budget medical episode, here’s my completely unqualified, moderately sarcastic guide to surviving it with your pride mostly intact.

Step 1: Always Pretend You Meant to Do That

Get wheeled to the corner? Slump into the recliner of defeat?

Just nod and say, “Ah yes, my throne awaits.”

Step 2: Glamour is a State of Mind

You may be pale, clammy, and one involuntary gag away from chaos — but with dry shampoo and lip gloss, you’re still out here serving “medical mystery with a touch of glam.”

Step 3: Nail the Exit Line

When the nurse asks how you’re doing, resist the urge to cry.

Instead, flash a weak smile and say, “Just vibing in my recliner. Living the dream.”

Step 4: Process Through Humor, Not Shame

Yes, I cried in the car. But first, I turned it into content.

Because if you don’t laugh about it, you’ll just sit there spiraling — and spiraling is cardio, which we’ve clearly had enough of.

Step 5: Journal the Chaos

Today’s prompt:

“What’s the most ridiculous moment that made you realize you’re stronger than you think?”

Bonus points if it involves medical-grade recliners and stubborn joints.

Step 6: Laugh Anyway

Even when your knees sound like bubble wrap.

Even when you feel like a human Jenga tower.

Even when the nurse hands you a puke bag like it’s a party favor.

Because humor might not fix it, but it sure as hell makes it feel less like a punishment.

So here’s to the ones who keep showing up — dizzy, sore, sidelined, and still making people laugh.

You’re not weak. You’re not dramatic.

You’re just navigating a body that didn’t read the manual.

And babe, that takes guts — and a recliner with lumbar support.

From the cardiac rehab time-out chair with love,

Jonesy

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Box Creatures, Hibachi Fires, and the Beautiful Mess in Between

From box creature name-calling to midnight kisses, life’s real magic hides in the chaos. A love letter to the messy, beautiful in-between moments of motherhood.

This morning, my three-year-old looked his big sister dead in the eyes and called her a “box creature.”

No context. No explanation.

Just pure threenager energy before I even finished my first cup of coffee. Honestly? I aspire to that level of chaotic confidence.

Meanwhile, my low blood pressure is putting on its own little circus act — falling asleep while sitting straight up, moving in slow motion (unless I’m falling), and riding mood swings big enough to make me side-eye my own sanity. Good times.


Life Isn’t Pinterest Perfect

My kids are 21, 8, and 3 — three totally different seasons of life under one (very lived-in) roof.

The days are long — filled with snack demands, courtroom-style sibling arguments, and mountains of laundry that have officially claimed squatter’s rights.

And honestly? I’m a crap housekeeper. I hate cleaning with a passion usually reserved for bad drivers and telemarketers.

I’m also a mega procrastinator. “I’ll get to it later” might as well be stitched onto a throw pillow around here.

But somehow, in the middle of the chaos, the magic sneaks in.


First Hibachi Magic

This week, we took the littles to their first hibachi restaurant.

Watching their faces light up (and slightly panic) when the chef lit a fire right in front of them was pure gold.

Screams. Laughter. Tiny hands clapping.

Memories locked in forever.

Kids are wild little shapeshifters.

One minute they’re curled in your lap smelling like syrup and sunshine.

The next, they’re battling over a blue crayon like it’s the last life raft on the Titanic.

They’re chaotic. They’re hilarious. They’re heartbreakingly fragile.

And every ridiculous moment — every box creature insult and every sleepy hug — is another stitch in who they’re becoming.


Mother’s Day at the Table

Mother’s Day this year wasn’t about flowers or gifts.

It was about the pure, simple gift of having all three of my babies — even my oldest, who’s off doing real superhero things — sitting around the same dinner table.

Talking, laughing, roasting each other like only siblings can.

That moment? That’s the good stuff.


Midnight Kisses Are the Payoff

Co-sleeping with a three-year-old should honestly be an Olympic sport.

I wake up with feet in my ribs and elbows in my face most nights.

But last night?

At 2 a.m., I woke up to a tiny, sleepy kiss on my cheek.

No demands. No tantrums.

Just pure, simple love.

That’s the stuff nobody warns you about.

That’s what makes it all worth it.


In closing:

Life isn’t neat.

It isn’t tidy.

It’s messy and loud and smells vaguely like peanut butter and that weird “outside kid” smell after a big day.

But it’s ours.

And tucked between the box creature wars, the hibachi fires, and the midnight kisses — there’s a kind of magic you can’t bottle or buy.

If today feels heavy, messy, or like you’re living inside a laundry basket — just know you’re not alone.

You’re doing better than you think.

And if you’ve been called a box creature today?

Honestly? You’re thriving.


Here’s to the messy magic we’re all stitching together, one box creature at a time.

Xo~ Jonesy

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Life Looks Different Now

I almost died—and it changed everything. I’m not here to be inspirational. I’m just a mom, a wife, and a woman trying to live more intentionally, with less hustle and more heart. If you’ve ever wondered if you’re spending your time on the wrong things… same, bestie.

I used to think I was invincible. That if I just pushed hard enough, hustled long enough, and kept showing up, everything would work out.

But lately? Life has handed me a plot twist I didn’t see coming—and suddenly, the things I used to stress over feel laughably small. Or maybe just…misplaced.

I almost died. Like, actually almost didn’t make it—and that’s not something I say for dramatic flair. It’s something I say because it’s still echoing in the back of my mind every single day.

I have a husband I love. Kids who need me. A whole life I love—but one I’ve been too busy to fully live in. And for what?

A job I care about, surrounded by people I genuinely like, doing work that often fulfills me—but still pulls me away from the people and moments I’ll never get back.

I need the salary. I need the insurance (believe me, my heart literally depends on it). But it’s clearer than ever that what I really need… is time. Presence. Purpose. A life that doesn’t just function, but feels meaningful.

Why are we trading our most precious moments—our mornings, our energy, our presence—for places and people who don’t know our favorite snacks or how we take our coffee?

I don’t have all the answers. I still show up to work. I still feel overwhelmed. But I also feel changed.

I want more quiet moments and real laughter. More family dinners and fewer unread emails. More life—not just survival.

So no, I’m not here to be an inspiration. I’m just trying to live like I mean it. And maybe remind someone else they can, too.

If you’ve been feeling it too—tired, overwhelmed, or just craving something real—I see you. And I’m so glad you’re here.

Thanks for reading.

Thanks for being part of this space.

And if this resonated, I’d love for you to leave a comment, share it, or just send it to a friend who might need it, too.

~Jonesy

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Three Weeks Later: Cardiac Rehab, Comebacks & My New Grandpa Squad

It’s officially been three weeks since my heart decided to throw a surprise plot twist into my life—and I’m still here, still healing, and still trying to figure out what this “new normal” is supposed to look like.

The short version?

I’m doing good. Still tired, still adjusting, but making slow, steady progress. And yes—despite the exhaustion, I even started easing back into work this week. (Big shoutout to caffeine, comfy shoes, and coworkers who don’t judge the “just surviving” energy I’m bringing to the table.)

But the real MVP of this recovery season?

Cardiac rehab.

Not just because it’s helping me get stronger—but because it introduced me to some of the most unexpectedly delightful people. My new friends are all old enough to be my grandparents, and honestly? I might like it that way. We cheer each other on, trade tips about blood pressure, and throw around phrases like “remember to breathe through it” and “don’t forget your nitro.” It’s giving Golden Girls meets gym class, and I’m kind of obsessed.

I never expected to find so much connection in a place filled with beeping monitors and exercise bikes, but here we are. There’s something comforting about healing alongside people who’ve seen some stuff—and still show up every day with a smile and a blood pressure cuff.

Healing hasn’t been linear. Some days I feel strong. Other days I’m just proud I remembered to take my meds and show up on time. But I’m learning to give myself grace in the in-between. To rest when I need to. To move when I can. And to find joy in the weird, slow magic of starting over.

So that’s where I’m at: rebuilding, reconnecting, and relearning how to be a slightly slower, but still sparkly version of me.

Thanks for cheering me on from afar. Every comment, text, prayer, and meme has mattered more than you know. I may be healing—but I’m not doing it alone. And that makes all the difference.

xo,

Jonesy

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Oatmeal: The Heart-Healthy Hug I Didn’t Know I Needed

Two weeks post-heart attack, I’m easing back into life one breakfast at a time. This heart-healthy oatmeal has become my go-to—comforting, simple, and a little bit elevated (yes, I used the pretty plates). Bonus: it includes Jif peanut butter… and y’all know I don’t even like peanut butter. The things we do for heart health.

Two weeks post-heart attack, and here I am—still kicking… mostly because I’m not cleared to run.

These days, “self-care” looks a little different. Less chaos, more naps. Less iced lattes on-the-go, more heart-healthy slow mornings (with coffee… obviously). And in my newfound oat era, I’ve discovered something beautiful: oatmeal actually slaps—especially when you dress it up like it’s heading to brunch.

Turns out, it’s also good for your heart, packed with soluble fiber that helps lower cholesterol and keep things movin’ (if you know, you know). Plus, it gives big “main character energy” when you top it just right.

So here it is—my go-to cozy breakfast bowl, now officially Jonesy-approved.

Jonesy’s Heart-Happy Oatmeal Bowl

Serves: 1 fabulously chaotic but health-conscious queen

Ingredients:

Toppings:

Instructions:

  1. Bring water and a pinch of salt to a boil.

  2. Stir in the oats, reduce heat, and simmer for about 10 minutes.

  3. Once thickened, stir in vanilla, cinnamon, and oat milk until it’s your perfect consistency (I like it creamy but still hearty).

  4. Pour into your prettiest bowl. Yes, the one you save for special occasions. Life is short—use the pretty plates.

  5. Add your toppings, give it a dramatic drizzle, and eat it like you’re the coziest version of yourself.

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Want to recreate this cozy little heart-hug of a breakfast? Here are the staples I used—pretty plates optional (but highly encouraged):

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Your Turn:

Have a go-to breakfast that makes you feel like a main character in a cozy rom-com? Tell me in the comments. And if you try this recipe, tag me on IG (@jonesyinreallife) so I can hype you up and pretend we’re having brunch together.

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Did Not See That Coming

It all begins with an idea.

Monday, March 31, 2025.

Just another morning. I was driving my daughter to school, sipping coffee, going over the mental checklist of mom life. You know—lunches packed, homework turned in, field trip form signed. Everything felt normal… until it didn’t.

Out of nowhere, I started to feel off. Not “I didn’t get enough sleep” off—something deeper. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest felt tight, like I had swallowed water wrong and it was stuck in a bubble behind my breastbone. It wasn’t pain, just this uncomfortable pressure that wouldn’t go away.

So I called the one person I always call when I feel weird—my mom.

“Hey,” I said. “I think I’m dying… or having the worst panic attack of my life.”

And in classic mom fashion, without skipping a beat, she said,

“Well, only the good die young—and you’re not that good. So tell me how you’re feeling.”

God love her.

But after I explained more—about the breathlessness, the pressure, the sense of doom—she didn’t joke anymore. She told me to hang up right then and call 911. And for once, I listened.

Good thing I did.

Because I wasn’t having a panic attack. I was having a heart attack.

Healthy on Paper Doesn’t Mean Safe in Real Life

Let me say this louder for the people in the back: I am 41. I don’t smoke. I don’t have high blood pressure. My cholesterol’s decent. I chase three kids around and eat vegetables on purpose. By all accounts, I’m “healthy.” But heart disease doesn’t care.

There were no chest-clutching, movie-style dramatics. No shooting pain down my arm. Just a vague uneasiness, shortness of breath, and a feeling in my chest like something was stuck. Honestly, I almost powered through and dropped my daughter off anyway.

But I didn’t. And that’s why I’m still here.

Why I’m Sharing This

Because women die from heart disease every day—many because they didn’t recognize the signs. Or worse, they were dismissed. By themselves. By others. By doctors.

We need to talk about it more. We need to normalize women listening to their bodies, trusting their intuition, and seeking care even when they’re “not sure” it’s serious.

Your body whispers before it screams. Don’t wait until it’s yelling.

Today, I’m Just Grateful.

Grateful that I knew something was wrong.

Grateful that my mom answered the phone.

Grateful that I’m still here to write this.

If you take anything away from this post, let it be this:

Trust your gut. Take your health seriously. And never apologize for making noise when something doesn’t feel right.

Hug your people a little tighter tonight. I know I will.


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